No-Idea-Post on Pangkor and BIG

Peace be upon you, readers.
Frankly, I do have lots of stuff to write about but myself doesn't seems that I have the energy to write it today. It has been 2 days since I came back from Pangkor Island for my Bina Insan Guru (BIG) that I was enthusiastically oath to myself to write on all sort of activities that I had done in Pangkor. But to who-so-ever disappointment, my oath is just an oath.
Let me roughly draft on what was just happened. We went to Pangkor on January 31st until February 3rd. Thus, it was a 4 days and 3 nights camp. I was assigned to be the head of AJK MAKANAN, that I offered myself for this post. I knew that it could be challenging and tough, due to time constraint the moment we were in Pangkor. However, I managed to do it well with the help from all of my friends. With their support and help had so much helping me to bear the tiresome. Well, there were so much to talk about this trip. Let me done my 5 pages reflection then I will spend my time writing it here...
On the second day, we were in the sea for half of the day, rafting... Enjoy the sun burning our skin.
On the third day, we were hiking the hill and trekking the jungle. Fun, we learn how to determine "arah kiblat" and "wudhuk" with a bottle of 1 litre of water for all. Isn't it sound amazing?
On the last day, ready to "blahhh"... hahaa

That was roughly drafted on 4 days and 3 nights of trip and camp in Pangkor. Will write details and more more in upcoming post... It is just that I don't have adequate time to share with you guys here. Assignments are upcoming and etc. No pictures because we are now in the process of compiling and collecting pictures from all cameras used in Pangkor. Promise you guys will do some uploading here.

Thanks, and bye. Love, all. :)))

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Feeling not right!

Today in history. Tuesday, January 17th, 2012.

I feel not right. I peel off my lips' skin. Bleeding, just a few drop. Oucchh!

I feel not right. I woke up late, again!

I feel not right. I am not betraying anyone. I have the right to choose my own group for my assignment.

I feel not right. I have to traffic my friend into my hostel this coming Thursday.

I feel not right. The Philosophy mass lecture was meaningless and worthless and super-damn-boring!

I feel not right. The allowances will only be received the week after next week.

I feel not right. I need to ask my mom a few hundreds for survival.

I feel not right because I have this not right feeling.

I feel not right because I am easily down and losing hope.

I feel not right knowing the fact that I am not strong and determined. 

Thus, I have to get things clear by now. I have to get this feeling fade away.

Hopefully. when I wake up tomorrow, I have a brighter smile that tells the world that I am right.

Till then, bye...

Not happy!

Seriously, I am not feeling happy this semester. Not happy that I am now staying at the end of the world's hostel block. 

Not happy that I have to walk 10 minutes to the guard house or to the entrance.

Not happy that I have this Room B for two.

Not happy of almost everything and everyone in the house.

Not happy that it has affected my mood in studies.

Not happy that it was major, dominant and real reason why I am not happy.

Not happy that I woke up late almost everyday. Not happy that I have to run and rush to the class.

Not happy that I always get sweat and the air cond was not functioning well. 

Not happy that I was surrounded by ugly society.

However, among all that, I was gifted some good friends. Who says my life wasn't happy most of the time?

I can be happy. Can still be happy. 

Life is a choice. Happiness is a choice. Sadness is also a choice.

If I let those negatives control my life, they drag me further down.

God, you are the reason why I am still strong.

Enough then, bye.

Run out cash!

Seriously, I was running out of cash. I have few ringgits to survive for a week or two. 

It has been 2 weeks away from home and I spend like I have been here for a month. 

I have to pay books and spending on lots other expenses. 

Books are of high demands now. Lecturers are keep on asking us to pay the books.

Thus, don't get freak if I act a little bit stingy these days onward. I need to spend the few ringgits left wisely.

Mom, will call you if I am in the state of desperation. 

Huhh, what a life? There will comes a time when money and currency isn't anything worth for everyone. Then, that will be the time that everybody faces no financial problems. Not at all. LOL!

I am waiting. Still waiting for allowances banked in my account.

Till that, I end this post. Bye.

Welcome!

I will never know until my friends told me that my blog was not open to everyone or everybody. Whereas, I never private my blog or open it for selected or invited person only. Oh well, I changed the privacy settings and everyone can now read my post and latest updates. 

Welcome back, everyone!!!

Hope you guys enjoy the reading.

Feeling better...

Hi, it was 1.26 in the morning, the moment this entry was posted.
Few days back, I caught a cold. I had been doing things to prevent its worsen, so sad it wasn't working. Today, I feel much better. Thanks to those who are still giving the care, attention and love towards me.
Thanks for the pills, medicine, cool fever, strepsils and so forth. I really much appreciate what you guys had been doing for me.
I have not make any phone call to my mom and not had any conversation with her in the line for quite sometimes. I started to miss home, family and friends. Can't wait to see them this coming March. I will be back home for SBE... Happy happy!
Today too, is my best friend, Kueh Chai Wei birthday anniversary. Happy 21st Birthday, she is a year older than us.
Though I am not writing much, but I would like to end this post.
I have more to say maybe in the latter post. Wait and read! kih3

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Ohh Gosh!

I have several posts to make that I forgot to. October is a month that my hands full.

Promise you guys I will update it here by this holiday.

- Bulan Bahasa Kebangsaan

- Debat Piala Timbalan Ketua Menteri IPG

- Many more, etc

Ohh... time time time :)

Yes, I scared of my own birthday. Let you know, I was born on February 29th and I am only celebrate my birthday once in 4 year. Isn't it sad?

You guys know why am I scared of my own birthday?

Because I rarely celebrated it. But, every year people will wish me on either 28th Feb or on 1st  March. Amazing isn't it? Not really! It was not my real birthday but I do thanks those who wished me. Sometimes, this is what they always said:

"Woww, you are born on rare date"

"You are special..."

"You are still young laaa!"

"How old are you..."

"Hahaha... it's not your birthday but I just want to wish you.."

"Owww, so sad and so kesian...."

Above are example of common wishes I received each year. I remember when I was 16, that was my last birthday party. It was well planned and I am not surprised at all. That time, I celebrate it with my friend, Kang Liew Chin which her birthday lied on 29th Feb too. I did not feel I am special that day but thanks a lot to my classmates who had plan all this. 

Therefore, this is what I am scared of. How would it be next year? Would it be as surpriseas Baiti's birthday yesterday night? I am always wondering about it.

"HOW WOULD IT BE?"

I would rather not celebrated my birthday than I have no party on my birthday. No party would even make me more sad. No celebration at all even better! Well, I am used to it.

I am not expecting much from my family and friends, but please make a moment in my life that I would never get rid of my mind and keep it everlasting printed in my mind. 

Well, my friends who are reading this post, please do something!

HAHAHA

Okay, enough said, BYE!

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Big Event

Hello!

I am here because I have something to update. Today, we were done with video clip preview, final presentation. This morning was my first time watching the video, indeed it was my group's video. My team mates done the video editing last night and I could not watch the final till this morning in the class. We had undergone so much trouble and situation before we finally and successfully preview it today. In the beginning, our plot was rejected because of we have no focal point and focus on events. We mix up everything and it deserved shown as drama series. At last, after listen to commentary we get rid some of the event and we work on one solid conflict and a concrete resolution, a very clear cut movie clip. However, our production have problem in video tapping which we can't find people that can help us transferring the video to pc. We were so run out of time and time wasted waiting to transfer it. A bad situation such that never end. We still have challenges during the making of the video and we have learn so  much through it. All I can say was we were in a critical stress situation but we never fight each other so far. Thanks to God. Praise you! Today, we deserved applause from my classmates. As they watching the movie, they were still and silent till the end, and they response positively towards it. Even though there's cut scene and less video animation or technical, less dialogue and more action but we receive positive commentary from the lecturers that evaluated us. Today was really a happy day for me and the rest of group members.

In the evening, I attended a meeting regarding Bulan Bahasa Kebangsaan which will be held in October. There are 10 (actually 9, but the lecturer wanted a round number) activities that I need to handle. Basically, I will not handle everything, but observe and make sure everything done on plan and within the time. We will have another meeting for the closing ceremony, maybe later. I have to think of budget, date because October will be busy with other activities too. The junior who are in charge of some the activities will be going to Pangkor on 9-13 October, and on the fourth week, there will be Minggu Bahasa Antarabangsa (International Languages Week). Argghh. I can imagine how busy the month will be later. Thus, I need to get myself ready physically and mentally.

Okay. Enough said. I need to reassemble the date for the competitions for next month. I am tired thinking of it all over again. Bye and wish me all the best and good luck. :)

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Mak, anak mu demam ni !

Hi, everyone. I would like to update myself here.

Currently, I caught a cold! 

Sneezing + coughing every seconds, minutes!

I am suffering now!

Feeling like to escape class tomorrow!

:'(

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I HEART them!

I HEART VANESSA ANNE HUDGENS AND ALEX PETTYFER!

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Awareness

Yesterday, I sleep for just an hour plus 4 hours this morning. Time is so limited due to lots of assignments and other commitments. Luckily, I did not sleep in the class today as the classes were not boring like previous day. Now, I am at the library to free my brain from thinking of my assignments. I have done with the materials searching and now I will start to write the assignments. I have learn to love what I do and that is why I am less complaining compared to the last semester. I am realize that, it is not the students in my college are always busy but almost all of other students of other colleges of different course are working hard for their assignments. I am not the only one who was busy at all time and spending hours at the library, indeed there were others too. If i had sacrificed hours of my sleeping time, others are doing the same too. Having said, I should not always force myself until the limit, I can always delayed the work depends on its priority. Right?

Okay then, readers. Thanks for being such a loyal reader of mine. Now, you guys have idea of my state. I am currently busy and it will never end. But, if I put attitude in completing all of my works, there's no more excuses of not to do, no complaining of having tonnes of works, but I only have reasons of being happy doing the routine. :)

We now comes to the end of my self awareness. Bye.
:)

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What do you hate the most #2

Hi, readers. The next thing that I hate the most in this world is...

I hate not the babies, but those who dump their babies, the baby dumper. They should make love, not make babies and dump it at the end of the day. In Malaysia, serious action has been taken to avoid this from more to happen. Moreover, the government once plan to open a school for the pregnancy mother and teach them not to give up and to go on with their life and grow up with their babies. Please, help to stop baby dumping!
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Citation #1

"Allah has no Blackberry or an iPhone, but He is my favourite contact. He doesn't have Twitter, but I follow Him.And, He doesn't have internet, but I am connected to Him. Copy and paste this as your status if you think ALLAH IS GREAT!!!"

Source:
Harris Davis' Facebook! Click here!

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Tired :"(

Tired and exhausted.

Exhausted and tired.

p/s: thinking of his time management now! how to make 24 hours enough for all works and get it done. i need help!!!

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Enthusiastic!

I am now enthusiastically looking for materials for my assignments.

Wish me all the best.

Thanks!

=) 

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Speechless Morning

Good Morning!
Just one to make silly post this morning!

"A small elephant is much BIGGER than a LARGE mouse"

Okay, done! Make sense?

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What do you hate the most #1

Hi, readers. I wanted to post this since I started blogging. The things that I hate the most! Here we go...

SLOW

SLOW

SLOW

SLOW

SLOW

I HATE PEOPLE WALKING SLOW IN FRONT OF ME!!!

Okay, that the most thing I hate in this world. Well, I am used to walk fast! :)

bye

SLOW

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Learn to Love What We Do

Hi, readers. Mind to spend your time to read this? Hopefully, it will teaches you guys something.

"If we agree that any job can be boring, can we agree that any job can be performed with energy and enthusiasm?"

"There is always a choice about the way you do your work, even if there is not a choice about the work itself."

Why wouldn't you have a choice about the work itself?

Good point!

You can always quit your job, and so in that sense you have a choice about the work you do. But it might not be a smart thing to do given your responsibilities and other factors. That's what I mean by choice. On the other hand, you always have a choice about the attitude you bring to the job. That choice determines the way you are at work. 

Understand? Understood? Well, I am experiencing something that I hate to do as a teacher trainee. I want to be a teacher, but I hate the way system works and control the students. I hate the things that they are forcing us to do, overall I have to undergone through it because that what a teacher requires to do before they are really really become a teacher. So, now I am learning the way to love what I do, day by day, till I am over used to it. I have choices to make, it is either I quit or I continue and put in effort, enthusiasm, passion and interest to it.

Enough said. Go and do my assignments.....!!!!!!!

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SHUT UP, IZZUL !!!

Day: TUESDAY
Date: 2nd AUGUST 2011
2nd day of fasting month

This morning, in the class, "one girl" asks me to SHUT UP!

SHUT UP, IZZUL !!! She said it TWICE to me! First during Social Studies class, then another one during Language Description class. Macam taikkkkkkk!

She said it TWICE to me and it hurts me like hell!

I have no mood to study and learn LDS tadi dalam kelas!

12:27pm

p/s: Macam dia tu pandai sangat! Kalau dia merapu dan melawak dalam kelas pun x da orang kisah sangat pun kat dia. Macam taikkkk!

Maybe you don't mean what had you said to me, but your actions are too mean for me. Well, maybe I am easily touch and sooooo sensitive. But I hate people ask me to Shut Up in the class, while I am actually response to the lesson in the class. Plus, I am not even making such a loud noise that disturbing people pun. Sorry if you read this. I am not writing it for you to read. Bye, belahhhhh!

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