No-Idea-Post on Pangkor and BIG

Peace be upon you, readers.
Frankly, I do have lots of stuff to write about but myself doesn't seems that I have the energy to write it today. It has been 2 days since I came back from Pangkor Island for my Bina Insan Guru (BIG) that I was enthusiastically oath to myself to write on all sort of activities that I had done in Pangkor. But to who-so-ever disappointment, my oath is just an oath.
Let me roughly draft on what was just happened. We went to Pangkor on January 31st until February 3rd. Thus, it was a 4 days and 3 nights camp. I was assigned to be the head of AJK MAKANAN, that I offered myself for this post. I knew that it could be challenging and tough, due to time constraint the moment we were in Pangkor. However, I managed to do it well with the help from all of my friends. With their support and help had so much helping me to bear the tiresome. Well, there were so much to talk about this trip. Let me done my 5 pages reflection then I will spend my time writing it here...
On the second day, we were in the sea for half of the day, rafting... Enjoy the sun burning our skin.
On the third day, we were hiking the hill and trekking the jungle. Fun, we learn how to determine "arah kiblat" and "wudhuk" with a bottle of 1 litre of water for all. Isn't it sound amazing?
On the last day, ready to "blahhh"... hahaa

That was roughly drafted on 4 days and 3 nights of trip and camp in Pangkor. Will write details and more more in upcoming post... It is just that I don't have adequate time to share with you guys here. Assignments are upcoming and etc. No pictures because we are now in the process of compiling and collecting pictures from all cameras used in Pangkor. Promise you guys will do some uploading here.

Thanks, and bye. Love, all. :)))

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Feeling not right!

Today in history. Tuesday, January 17th, 2012.

I feel not right. I peel off my lips' skin. Bleeding, just a few drop. Oucchh!

I feel not right. I woke up late, again!

I feel not right. I am not betraying anyone. I have the right to choose my own group for my assignment.

I feel not right. I have to traffic my friend into my hostel this coming Thursday.

I feel not right. The Philosophy mass lecture was meaningless and worthless and super-damn-boring!

I feel not right. The allowances will only be received the week after next week.

I feel not right. I need to ask my mom a few hundreds for survival.

I feel not right because I have this not right feeling.

I feel not right because I am easily down and losing hope.

I feel not right knowing the fact that I am not strong and determined. 

Thus, I have to get things clear by now. I have to get this feeling fade away.

Hopefully. when I wake up tomorrow, I have a brighter smile that tells the world that I am right.

Till then, bye...

Not happy!

Seriously, I am not feeling happy this semester. Not happy that I am now staying at the end of the world's hostel block. 

Not happy that I have to walk 10 minutes to the guard house or to the entrance.

Not happy that I have this Room B for two.

Not happy of almost everything and everyone in the house.

Not happy that it has affected my mood in studies.

Not happy that it was major, dominant and real reason why I am not happy.

Not happy that I woke up late almost everyday. Not happy that I have to run and rush to the class.

Not happy that I always get sweat and the air cond was not functioning well. 

Not happy that I was surrounded by ugly society.

However, among all that, I was gifted some good friends. Who says my life wasn't happy most of the time?

I can be happy. Can still be happy. 

Life is a choice. Happiness is a choice. Sadness is also a choice.

If I let those negatives control my life, they drag me further down.

God, you are the reason why I am still strong.

Enough then, bye.

What do you hate the most #3

Hi, all. Such a warm morning. I am sweating though it is 1 am in the morning. Okay, enough of silly flowery languages.

Well now, what do I hate the most? This is the hatred number 3.

I hate it when my life was governed by other's rules and so forth. I hate it when I should have control of my own life but was governed and controlled by others.

I live this life up to my expectations and not yours. I am voiceless at the moment because I knew that I bear it for the time being. I am not so sure if you realized what have you done, how unfair you serve and treat me. How "I don't care about it" actually.

Remind you that this is not all I wanted. You think how can we be together and etc. Then, recall back how and what have you done as long as we together. I am looking forward this semester to have its end. Then, we just say Hi when we both pass by each other. :)

Just continue governing my life, what should I do, where should I go and what next in my daily routine. I let you have the control. :)

Then, I started to have this not-so-good kind of dislikes towards you. Your stupid-innate-nature is the reason why. My language puzzling all over as the mad goes along. Taikkkkk.

:)

Hidung tak mancung, pipi kau tersorong-sorong. Peace yah!

Run out cash!

Seriously, I was running out of cash. I have few ringgits to survive for a week or two. 

It has been 2 weeks away from home and I spend like I have been here for a month. 

I have to pay books and spending on lots other expenses. 

Books are of high demands now. Lecturers are keep on asking us to pay the books.

Thus, don't get freak if I act a little bit stingy these days onward. I need to spend the few ringgits left wisely.

Mom, will call you if I am in the state of desperation. 

Huhh, what a life? There will comes a time when money and currency isn't anything worth for everyone. Then, that will be the time that everybody faces no financial problems. Not at all. LOL!

I am waiting. Still waiting for allowances banked in my account.

Till that, I end this post. Bye.

Welcome!

I will never know until my friends told me that my blog was not open to everyone or everybody. Whereas, I never private my blog or open it for selected or invited person only. Oh well, I changed the privacy settings and everyone can now read my post and latest updates. 

Welcome back, everyone!!!

Hope you guys enjoy the reading.

Feeling better...

Hi, it was 1.26 in the morning, the moment this entry was posted.
Few days back, I caught a cold. I had been doing things to prevent its worsen, so sad it wasn't working. Today, I feel much better. Thanks to those who are still giving the care, attention and love towards me.
Thanks for the pills, medicine, cool fever, strepsils and so forth. I really much appreciate what you guys had been doing for me.
I have not make any phone call to my mom and not had any conversation with her in the line for quite sometimes. I started to miss home, family and friends. Can't wait to see them this coming March. I will be back home for SBE... Happy happy!
Today too, is my best friend, Kueh Chai Wei birthday anniversary. Happy 21st Birthday, she is a year older than us.
Though I am not writing much, but I would like to end this post.
I have more to say maybe in the latter post. Wait and read! kih3

Happy Birthday, Nur Baiti Borhan!

It's a warm Sunday morn the time I was writing this post. Yesterday, 24th Okt was gone, just in the blink of an eye. Quick, the day goes so quick! Yesterday was someone's birthday, my best friend, Baiti.
3 days before her birthday, I was impatiently waited to wish her a happy birthday. But, when the day came, I was forgot. Frankly, I was forgot and was remind by her. We went out for lunch at 2pm yesterday and I never plan to went out. I just don't know why, finally I was out with Baiti, Mima and Abg Aiman to KLCC. The day before, Baiti was asking to bring me to i-City but I provoked her, then that evening she went out with Yazid but  Yazid left her at Mid Valley as he has something to run. Baiti told me that she was alone at Mid Valley and she ended up watching movies, Bride Maids and sight seeing there. Luckily, she was not alone back to hostel as she found Nisa, Sya and the rest to go back with.

And, as for yesterday after lunch, Mima plan to bring me to pharmacy at KL Central and Baiti will out with Abg Aiman. After a hard thinking, we both join Baiti and went out together at last. Baiti plan to go to KLCC (park) and museum. As we arrived KLCC, we went in and out the shops there, went to Kinokuniya, and we were watching Johnny English. It was really out from the first plan. Abg Aiman was fasting that day, that is why we cancel the makan2 kek session at the park. After movie, we bought the cake, Costa Rica chocolate from Cake Sense and after that went to the park for camwhore. After that, we went to Cold Storage and Mima and I bought her birthday present.

Along the way after watching the movie, Mima and I contacted our friends at campus on the plan to prank and surprise Baiti. Yes, it's work. The moment we arrived the gate, there was nothing happen and after the second gate, there it was, tepung2 session and Baiti was so so surprised! Even myself and Mima could never thought of the surprise. It was really surprising surprise and indeed work!

Then, we have the party at Block 4. Unfortunately, not everybody in my class especially guys join us because some were busy with Marhabban next Monday. Whatever it is, Baiti was still happy!

Happy Birthday Baiti! Before I forgot, Hikhmah was the one who behind all this. She planned it 3 days before and acted like she don't care about Baiti. That day too, Adriana pretended that she caught a cold. HAHA....

It was indeed one of the best birthday surprise among my classmates.

AND THAT WAS WHAT I SCARED OF!!!

I am scared what would it be next year during my birthday.

Enough said, I will continue in the next post! Byeeeee

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Big Event

Hello!

I am here because I have something to update. Today, we were done with video clip preview, final presentation. This morning was my first time watching the video, indeed it was my group's video. My team mates done the video editing last night and I could not watch the final till this morning in the class. We had undergone so much trouble and situation before we finally and successfully preview it today. In the beginning, our plot was rejected because of we have no focal point and focus on events. We mix up everything and it deserved shown as drama series. At last, after listen to commentary we get rid some of the event and we work on one solid conflict and a concrete resolution, a very clear cut movie clip. However, our production have problem in video tapping which we can't find people that can help us transferring the video to pc. We were so run out of time and time wasted waiting to transfer it. A bad situation such that never end. We still have challenges during the making of the video and we have learn so  much through it. All I can say was we were in a critical stress situation but we never fight each other so far. Thanks to God. Praise you! Today, we deserved applause from my classmates. As they watching the movie, they were still and silent till the end, and they response positively towards it. Even though there's cut scene and less video animation or technical, less dialogue and more action but we receive positive commentary from the lecturers that evaluated us. Today was really a happy day for me and the rest of group members.

In the evening, I attended a meeting regarding Bulan Bahasa Kebangsaan which will be held in October. There are 10 (actually 9, but the lecturer wanted a round number) activities that I need to handle. Basically, I will not handle everything, but observe and make sure everything done on plan and within the time. We will have another meeting for the closing ceremony, maybe later. I have to think of budget, date because October will be busy with other activities too. The junior who are in charge of some the activities will be going to Pangkor on 9-13 October, and on the fourth week, there will be Minggu Bahasa Antarabangsa (International Languages Week). Argghh. I can imagine how busy the month will be later. Thus, I need to get myself ready physically and mentally.

Okay. Enough said. I need to reassemble the date for the competitions for next month. I am tired thinking of it all over again. Bye and wish me all the best and good luck. :)

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Go craze and mess up!

Hello!

I am sorry for neglecting my blog for quite some time. I am not away from computer or even banned from using internet. I was here, online but I don't feel to update what I am up to. 

As for yesterday, just an hour ago, I had submitted 2 assignments that was done last minutes. The latest it was done was at 3pm. Still, you can see bright smile on my face.

I know myself feels stress and depress. Because, I acted out of my norm. I go crazy and mess myself up with things that I should not do. I have things to do but end up doing not beneficial things like wandering around and teasing friends doing their work. Luckily, I have 3 free period today and free to do those crazy things. 

It was actually signs and symptoms that show my level of stress. I was! I have friends to talk to, but won't let they know what I feel.

Well, as for now, I have nothing to do. Actually, I got something to do but end up updating my blog. I have no focus, my thoughts are all out from my mind, my body is not united with soul. 

I am really at the state of critical. Critical. But, thanks GOD I am not insane. 

Enough of myself.

I am done with 2 assignments. Now, I can focus on another 2. My movie clip and reflection essay and also an academic writing of 1200 words. Then, I have final exam to sit in November. I must get myself ready for it. I must excel with flying colors. 

Ok then. Byeeeeeeeeeee

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Awareness

Yesterday, I sleep for just an hour plus 4 hours this morning. Time is so limited due to lots of assignments and other commitments. Luckily, I did not sleep in the class today as the classes were not boring like previous day. Now, I am at the library to free my brain from thinking of my assignments. I have done with the materials searching and now I will start to write the assignments. I have learn to love what I do and that is why I am less complaining compared to the last semester. I am realize that, it is not the students in my college are always busy but almost all of other students of other colleges of different course are working hard for their assignments. I am not the only one who was busy at all time and spending hours at the library, indeed there were others too. If i had sacrificed hours of my sleeping time, others are doing the same too. Having said, I should not always force myself until the limit, I can always delayed the work depends on its priority. Right?

Okay then, readers. Thanks for being such a loyal reader of mine. Now, you guys have idea of my state. I am currently busy and it will never end. But, if I put attitude in completing all of my works, there's no more excuses of not to do, no complaining of having tonnes of works, but I only have reasons of being happy doing the routine. :)

We now comes to the end of my self awareness. Bye.
:)

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Learn to Love What We Do

Hi, readers. Mind to spend your time to read this? Hopefully, it will teaches you guys something.

"If we agree that any job can be boring, can we agree that any job can be performed with energy and enthusiasm?"

"There is always a choice about the way you do your work, even if there is not a choice about the work itself."

Why wouldn't you have a choice about the work itself?

Good point!

You can always quit your job, and so in that sense you have a choice about the work you do. But it might not be a smart thing to do given your responsibilities and other factors. That's what I mean by choice. On the other hand, you always have a choice about the attitude you bring to the job. That choice determines the way you are at work. 

Understand? Understood? Well, I am experiencing something that I hate to do as a teacher trainee. I want to be a teacher, but I hate the way system works and control the students. I hate the things that they are forcing us to do, overall I have to undergone through it because that what a teacher requires to do before they are really really become a teacher. So, now I am learning the way to love what I do, day by day, till I am over used to it. I have choices to make, it is either I quit or I continue and put in effort, enthusiasm, passion and interest to it.

Enough said. Go and do my assignments.....!!!!!!!

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SHUT UP, IZZUL !!!

Day: TUESDAY
Date: 2nd AUGUST 2011
2nd day of fasting month

This morning, in the class, "one girl" asks me to SHUT UP!

SHUT UP, IZZUL !!! She said it TWICE to me! First during Social Studies class, then another one during Language Description class. Macam taikkkkkkk!

She said it TWICE to me and it hurts me like hell!

I have no mood to study and learn LDS tadi dalam kelas!

12:27pm

p/s: Macam dia tu pandai sangat! Kalau dia merapu dan melawak dalam kelas pun x da orang kisah sangat pun kat dia. Macam taikkkk!

Maybe you don't mean what had you said to me, but your actions are too mean for me. Well, maybe I am easily touch and sooooo sensitive. But I hate people ask me to Shut Up in the class, while I am actually response to the lesson in the class. Plus, I am not even making such a loud noise that disturbing people pun. Sorry if you read this. I am not writing it for you to read. Bye, belahhhhh!

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1st Sahur this year!

Good morning, bloggers and readers!
Selamat bersahur, makan sekadar nak mengisi perut je ok. Jika niat betul malam tadi, insya Allah, kita kan dapat tahan berpuasa sehari ini nanti.
Jadi, pagi ini merupakan sahur pertama bagi kita semua untuk tahun ini. Jika bersahur di rumah pasti dapat makanan mewah. Mewah bukan apa, mewah di rumah lain dengan mewahnya di asrama. Di rumah mewah ada nasi + ayam ke, kalau kat asrama mewah nya pulak dapat makan nasi + telur pun dah happy lupa dunia.
Well, first day sahur semua orang nak makan makanan yang bagus2, yang secukupnya untuk mereka hari ini. Aku pula x la prepare apa2 nak dimakan untuk sahur ni. Tapi malam tadi, tengah orang berterawih aku g Cafe kat Blok aku then order Nasi Goreng Belacan, kononya untuk sahur la. Tapi pagi ni tadi bukak mata jam 5pagi, terasa lapar la pulak. Humm.... alaa, aku minum pulak oat, minuman bijiran la katakan. At least x la aku lapar sangat hari ni kan?! Macam x biasa puasa! hahaa

Dapat minum oat pun jadi la, aku hantam buat 2 bungkus. Gelas sederhana besar je. End up aku punya pekat gilerrrrrrrrr, gilerrrrrrrrrr pekat..... hahaa :)

Housemates aku semua dah tidur pada saat tatkala ketika ini, hahaa.... Bahasa Melayu sangat lah kan?!

Aku je sibuk update blog ni nak gitaw kat dunia aku makan apa sahur pagi ini.... hahaa

Bah la korang, aku nak blogwalking dulu, baca blog2 kawan sekelas. MENARIK JUGAK TAW! hahaa

byeeeeeeeeee

p/s: aku tulis bahasa melayu hampir full taw! baguss.... alaa, blog aku bilingual! haha enjoy ye korang!

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Selamat Berpuasa

Hi, readers! Today is the end of July, also the end of luncheon for 30 days ahead. Tomorrow, all Muslim will start fasting! Happy fasting to all!
So, let's go Terawih tonight and niat puasa for 1 month straight... haha

I will Ayam Goreng kantin for 30 days! haha.... breast breast thigh thigh drumstick and wing!

Of course, I miss the togetherness!

It's okay. I still have friends here to break fast together here! However, the situation definitely not the same as with our family. Well, they are my family here, friends!

I can't wait to go back hometown! 26th August!!!

Today, I really really experienced the life of a college student. We eat Maggi Curry plus plain rice, yum yum... Now I really really feel like I am a college student, we cook the nasi and the maggi curry and we share eating the dishes. Yum yum !!! FULL I tell you!

Maggi Curry x 2

Here it is! 

Plus nasi putih !!!

Until then, bye!

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Arrgghhhh !!!

Hi, readers!
As I had said in my previous entry, I have now come to a busy period. Why busy? Because I had received loads of assignments to be completed as soon as possible as the due is just around the corner.

Well, I have short group assignment for Basic Mathematics. We need to distribute a questionnaire to 50 people of variety. Our topic is on Television Programme and things related. Enough, not to tell you guys much about it!

Then, I have a reflective 1500 words essay for my Pengantar Pendidikan. Reflective essay is on Smart School, Cluster School and Wawasan School. Sound easy but "see the leg" okay. The marking scheme and criteria are very very indeed really really strict like hell. They are used to fail the students. Well, I need to do lots of research, critical reading and deep understanding on the topic before I start writing the essay. Well, wish me Good Luck!

Then, English Studies, we have 2 course work, both 30% and 70% respectively. For 30%, we are to write a reader response of many types (we ourselves choose) of about 400+ words. On what novel? PRIDE AND PREJUDICE! Fyi, I have not started reading the book! Well, get ready to DIE!

The last but not the least, Language Development. We are to write an academic piece of writing of about 1500 words on issue related to Education! I have chosen the topic: Integrating ICT into teaching and learning in schools is an effective way.

I still need to narrow the perspective and aim of my essay. I need to be specific and clear of what I am going to write. The words provided maybe not much for me to write a widen issue. I indeed need lecturers' help and support!

After all, I try to keep myself away from or feel STRESS!!!!

Okay, no stress! No tension! No tight faces! As a student, this is your way of life. Will never away or escape from homework or assignments burdening. Prior to that, what should I do is to be prepared and always complete everything before time. Do not delayed my works. Once done then I can RELAX!

Okay, enough said, until then, bye!

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Deactivate Successful

HELLO, WORLD!
Yayy, I am finally able and successfully DEACTIVATE my FACEBOOK account! It was about few days ago, after a year of trying to deactivate it. It is not an easy one, it needs strong power, will and determination to do that. Yes, I am strong enough to say NO to Facebook! Well, as for this Semester I will sit for exam, so I need time to do revision, and spend more time with books... Hopefully, let see the changes after this!

Please click "Deactivate My Account", hahaa

DARE enough to say NO to FACEBOOK?!!!

Here you go, trash !!!

P/S: I am not permanently gone from Facebook, it is just temporary. I will be back sooner or later, but not so soon! hehe :)

Furthermore, I have time to update my blog and keep you guys updated of what I am up to!
Well, having said now is ASSIGNMENTS WAR II.... This is what I call as Assignments Period! There are about 3 that I need to submit in August.... It just around the corner.... Let's battle with it!!!

Ok, enough said ... Will be back soon!!! Toodles .... :)


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2 days update

Hello, here I back after few days off. I just got free time to update this.
The first and second week for this semester was crazy crammed full packed! The first week I was involved with the Minggu Pengurusan Pelajar Baru (new intake) until Thursday. After that, we were busied practicing and doing rehearsal for Majlis Sambutan Hari Guru which was held on Monday this week. All day long we put on our efforts, focus and commitments to it. Then, on the second week I was managed to be in the class and studied as usual, but still there was a lot for me to catch up! I need to find myself time to complete all the undone tasks and time to do revision.
During my weekend in the first week, I was managed to out sending my juniors to shop. Then, during this weekend I went out too with some of my friends.
Last Friday, we went out for makan2 at Chicken Rice Shop to celebrate our very first achievement for this semester. There were about 20+ of us, and I enjoyed our moments together. Thanks to my seniors for the treats, we enjoyed the foods and there were a lot like heaven! I was full because I was too happy being able to be together with them. After that, we were planning for bowling games, but the place was fully booked until 8pm, so we wait. I enjoyed the games, and it was pretty first time for me played it. However, we enjoyed!

*no pictures but you can browse it through my facebook

On the next day was Larian 1 Murid, 1 Sukan, 1 Malaysia ... We enjoyed the day though we need to wake up early as early as 6am that day ...

In the afternoon, I accompanied Charisma and Harris to Fahreinheit (check my spelling) and Low Yatt ...

We went to KLCC , eating slices of cakes at Secret Recipe, walking to Wisma Central seeking for costume, then walking again to Pavillion, window shop and camwhore at Pavi, then out looking for costume shop at Fahreinheit and we slurpee too! Then, cash out money, got the costume then to Low Yatt to get Harris' Canon DSLR, then been cheated at Shinkiya, we thought we ate RM9.90 each but ended up paying the RM51.00 bill ... Then, up and down the Low Yatt looking for unnecessary things, end up bought the inkjet refill ... Then, straight to Times Square ... Up and down , planning to watch movies but some of them were tired already and going back to IPBA .... What a fun yet exhausting day !!!!!!!!!!! :)

*sorry no pictures but you can browse it through my facebook

Enough write and said ... Toodles !

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Misunderstanding ...

Hello, everyone. Here I am again to share what I had experienced hours ago before the class ended today.

"The misunderstanding..."

Yesterday in the class, I had wrote a quotation "Don't ever come back to a relationship that was ended. It is just like repeatedly reading a book that we know the ending" on a piece of paper, of sake to snap a picture with it. And I had left the paper in the room, until today somebody pick it up and put it on my chair while I was not there. She knew I wrote that, so she just want to give me back. Then, I found it distracted as I want to sit so I put it on someone's table. Suddenly, that someone ask me who wrote that. I purposely said not me. I didn't noticed that she's not in the right mood maybe because she had conflict or fight with her boyfriend. She was indeed thought that the words was given for her to read. Then, before class end, she announced who wrote that, so I had to admit that I was doing that, but it was not for her. Then, she cried. Before class ended once again, I said to her that I had no intention either to mock or write the words for her, then an apology as well. It was my wrong too that I did not admit at first point she was asking me who wrote it. I was played jokes with her without I realized she is not in the right mood. That's the end of the story....

Moral of the story?

• I had realized that not all people can accept jokes
• I should not played people most of the times
• I need to be serious sometime
• Don't ever do that again to the person (only her, the rest still can)
• What else?
• Change for better Izzul Faiz bin Abdul Mutalip!

Suddenly, I really want to cry?! Weird, I need a shoulder but definitely I won't get it. Hahaha

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Let me tell you...

Hello, everyone! Just want to inform that maybe this few days except for weekend, that I will not be free because I just receive 2 assignments and should start work on it. The submission is next week so I need to start early and send as many drafts as I can! So, with this opportunity I would like to tell you guys that I will not be free (actually I can make myself free) to focus on doing my assignments as well as completing tasks and updating my port folio for several subjects. The reasons why I want to start earlier because next week and I can start packing my stuffs and be going home on next week Saturday! Everything must be quick and fast!!!


Readers, promise you that I will keep updating my page with hot, sensational and current stories of myself! Thanks for your loyalty...
Those who in chat Box I yet to reply your chat...
Zillion thanks to everyone...


Pray for the best for me okay!


Thanks...


Until now, bye...


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